Wednesday, July 25, 2012

So I did something that I was not proud of myself for and really started thinking why did I do this when I didn't want to.  I asked God for his forgiveness and I know he forgives me and I need to move on and do the right thing make it right.  well, I also was thinking why if I am on this path would God allow this to happen.  He wants us to learn and grow and the only way we can do this is through mistakes.  I also think that everyone and everything happens for a reason and God puts people in our path for his reasons not ours.  I think sometimes we get lost trying to figure this out.  I did something in this process and I think that God tried to warn me and I didn't listen once again.  What is wrong with me, I ask.. well we think in a different way then what God does.  I am trying to program my brain to the right way, his way.  This journey has not been easy and anyone that starts one with the lord is going through one all I have to say if don't give up.   I am not giving up and I will continue on his path.  Evil throws things our way and trys to get us from our path but he will never steer me away from God.  Yes I may make my mistakes and now I know that when I do that God does forgive.  He will never leave me and so I will not worry about that anymore.  I do know that this gives me more drive to be a better person as he was to all.  My heart has truly changed and I love so much that sometimes that is what hurts.  There is so much love you don't know how to give it out.  Have a wonderful day to all of you out there and to my sweet, sweet, boy if you are reading this momma loves you so very much and I am proud of the man you have become.  Through all the things you have been through in such a short life.  You my son inspire me...God gives us these precious gifts to learn and teach from them and you are my gift from God as your sisters are also.  My love is always with you through out your day and forever.  XOXOXO God Bless

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