I had a great day yesterday with my friend and my youngest daughter,  Even the negative things that were thrown at me I didn't let them get to me.  I think finally I'm learning.  It is still hard and I know what the right thing to do is, instead of fighting back and making everyone upset and angry.  I don't need to point fingers or justify or even defend what I do.  I know what I do is the way of God for the most part.  I know that I am not intentionally trying to hurt anyone.  I am trying to make my life better and more importantly teach my children about the Truth and that is what God would want me to do.  I really feel that the act of kindness to whom ever it may be (ex- someone you don't know, just anyone.)  makes a difference and some how I believe it will change that person and make you feel good in the process.  The process of changing our life's to this way is not easy and doesn't happen over night, but what I do know is that when I do this I know I get one step closer to our Lord.  That is my goal and my goal to show my children that the ways of this world and to be hateful and fight back is negative and is not the ways of God.  God knows the truth of what I am doing and that is the only person you need to prove anything to.  I started to feel down today and remembered who was on my side.  I thought for a moment I wanted to be that girl (the one that got picked) and remember no I don't.  I feel for that girl as she doesn't know the truth.  I felt like my prayers weren't answered when in fact they were.  Thank you God you ROCK and you are my WOW factor.  My focus lies on you and what my mission is.  I ask for Grace and for forgiveness as the thoughts I had were not of you.  I know that in time I will get my prayers just in your time.  For now I want to serve you and do as you ask.  I know I will stumble on days because that is the child that I am which you are fully aware of.  So I love you Lord and please guide me to your direction.  God bless everyone out there.