I know that I haven't written on here for awhile.  Life what a crazy thing sometimes.  Dealing with custody issues and still looking for a job.  Every time I think that things are so bad I just pray to our God to please just take this and guide me through it the way you would have done it.  I know that I am not always the most patient person and that sometimes that I am not quiet enough to hear him and what he has in store for me.  I know he knows that I love him and that my life is following in his direction.  This hasn't been an easy road changing my believes and doing what is right in the eyes of our Lord but I know that even if the rewards are not shown here they will be up there, and that is more important that having it all.  I look back at my life a year ago and realize just how different I am and thank God for the ability to change and be saved.  I am not perfect, far from it but what I do know is that I so very much love our Lord.  When I do something now I don't think about what other people will think I think does this make God proud or would he have done it this way.  I ask him for forgiveness daily as I know that what I do and say isn't always of him or what he would do.....I just heard the best story about a young man taking care of his parents that got into some financial trouble and he has a good job and is sending them money and giving up things for himself for them.   Now this is a godly man.... God bless this family.... What a wonderful God we have to work in peoples lives like that.  God bless all of you out there... Have a blessed day...