Boy  who ever said that following the Lord and staying faithful to him and his way is easy was not being truthful.  Yes of course it is rewarding but the test that we go through some times can seem unbearable.  I started this journey with my friend Lisa and boy have we been through a lot together.  Right now it seems as if we try and try to stay on his path and evil tries its hardest to distract us from doing Gods work.  I know that we are stronger together and that we will defeat evil.  I never want to go back to my old life but sometimes I can say I look at it and think and know the reason I stayed so long. It was easier but of course the things that I did were just a band-aide for life's solutions.   I don't want a band-aide or nor do I want to cover up the feeling with something else.  I want to live the life he has planned for me but boy can  we just get started  with the good part.  I know we have to go through the bad to appreciate the good. I am praying that things are about to change greatly for both of us.  I want our families to enjoy and live the way God intended it to be.  I am ready for this and I know it wont be easy but the challenge I am ready for.  I have been challenged with some pretty tough decisions lately and I know that the closer I get to God I get to the Truth. The Truth is what he wants from us.  If we know him which is through bible then we know what to do.    Does this make it easy, well no it doesn't but we know that when it comes to judgement day that we can say we made the right choices.  It is a process re-training your brain to re-think that the ways of this world are not right and that God has much better ways.  God is in every decision that I make and I know that Lisa feels the same way.  That there is not one thing I can think of that doesn't involve him and the way he is trying to transform this world through us.  He is the most amazing, incredible God.  I want him to show me what to do and who to help.  I want the gift that people see him through me.  I'm ready Lord and so is Lisa  so lets Go....I Love you, We love you so much.  Amen.  God Bless all of you.