So I was awaken once again at 2:45 seems to be a pattern.  I was thinking about this blog and that I didn't write yesterday because I was waiting for something that was great and exciting to inspire me when I realized that there is so many things that I could tell you about.  First off I want to thank God for this second chance at living his way.  Really thank him is what I want to do.  So I say to him guide me to help me to share this with people out there. Guide me to show me who I can help through out my days and to stay in his word.  I know that he has his plan and that everything and everyone happens for a reason.  now what that reason is we don't really know at the time but he will reveal it to us on his time.  I went and saw the movie The lucky one with Bri and Jeanne and the whole time during the movie thinking wow I want someone to look at me that way.  we can all have that  if we don't settle, it is out there but not in our time in his.  In his perfect plan to show us the perfect one.  I told someone one day that I will not settle this time and I intend to keep this promise.  I want someone to look at me and know what they want not to have to think about it.  I want to feel like this is right, right now, and right for the rest of my life.  wow it is amazing the inspiration that he gives me at 3 in the morning.  I told my daughter yesterday the old me would have already had a couple of guys just because hanging around when I need them.  Now who is that fair too.  Not them and not me and not my children.  I realized I would rally be alone, then to have the maybe I can make this possible kinda man.  I want to share everything with this person and cant wait, maybe that is why we try and rush this with the wrong people sometimes cause we do want this so bad.  So if you are out there and thinking what do I want really want, and your sorta with someone, think about  this does this person make you say WOW,  now you got your answer.  THANK YOU GOD I just got mine.  Now I will go through out my day and show people what God has asked of me and that WOW someone will come my way without me even thinking about it.  This is not my plan but his.  Thank you Lord for all these blessings I cant ever repay you but I am going to try.  I Love the lord so very much.