Okay I woke up this morning with a different kind of Hope, the hope that I thought I lost or had to give up.  Sometimes we are asked to give up things that are not right for us at the time we want them.  Isn't it funny though if you look at the big picture how things will work out.  I know and have known that it would it was just timing and not mine. If you all read this you probably already figured out I sorta like my timing not Gods.  I'm working on that, its not easy.  I had a great conversation last night with an old friend till like 1 30 in the morning,  explaining who I am not and pretty much probably shocked this person.  But I know they could see the passion I have for the Lord and trust in him.  So when he asks me to do something and he has. I don't always like it but I will do it cause I trust in him and have the faith.  I love him so very much he gives me the strength I need to go about my day.  I know someone sometimes gets hurt but you not only free yourself but you free them to the life that God has planned for them.  I am so excited for the plans he has for me and my family, and by family I mean the one he is giving me.  I couldn't ask for anything better cause he picked it not me this time.. Wow I think I am getting it.... Thanks God for saving me I do love you more than anything.