I awoke today with a message to help a friends mother.  well that is what I will do.  Its funny cause I went to be feeling a little sorry for myself and when I woke up said all that is gone and I am going to tunnel that self pity to someone Else's needs.  I also know that things will work out maybe not how I planned them but better.  I cant allow myself to keep up that yo yo thing that I have allowed my entire life. cause  I have bigger and better things to do then to feel sorry for the things that don't work out for me.  God has this plan and  I know I can make it easy by following it or I can make it hard by paving my own.  It sorta weird cause this way of thinking took away what I thought would be hard to give up,and gave me the strength  to do this other thing with vengeance.  For those of you that don't know I have been laid off for about a year now and its weird cause I have never had a hard time finding a job.  I helped out last night at the food bank with our church New Hope and I was talking to this gentleman and told him that I wasn't really upset about not fin10ding a job cause I am extremely busy right now.  God has me working for him, not that I am giving up on a job cause I look and apply a lot but until then I will keep pushing on doing things to help others get closer to the lord.  That is my job... what a great job it is... This is worth way more then money...So when you go about your day remember to help others, just the act of kindness shows them the light.  God bless I have been putting off things for myself like working out.  well the other goal I have is to try and workout every morning after the kids go to school.  I need to loose 10lbs and most important firm up.  I always feel great when I work out, plus I meet new friends there.  so if you want to work out give me a call.... So all I have to say is bring on my day cause I am ready.. God Bless all of you.