Today I want to thank God for the things that he has given me the opportunity to move forward with. I struggle some days with the things that drag me down.  The pressure that I feel on my chest is letting this hold me back. I learned this yesterday and know I will let go of that.  I will ask God to take this from me and to help me let go and free myself from this pain and hurt that I hold on to.  I thought I was letting go but its here and I feel it.  I know I can do this as I have done much bigger.  I also know that God will be with me guiding me in the direction of him and helping with this next step.  So I will begin my day with all this and letting go of it to free my heart to what God has open for me.  I think sometimes we think that we are free but deep berried somewhere in there it comes out.  Through our thoughts or just how we protect ourselves from this.  God will protect us.  So I ask you Lord let me free myself of this pain and move forward today in your plan and stop looking for mine.  I want to live like you and with you always inside me.  Thank you for sending your son to take this from us so that we can be free to be with you.  This I am so grateful for and cant serve you enough to repay what you son paid for us.  I will try today and ever day I have here to be the servant that you son was.  I LOVE YOU so very much, you are the first thing in my life and everything else comes after you.  I know this sometimes is hard but I know that you will carry me through anything.  Amen.