So yesterday was Tuesday and I had and interview and it went well I am sure.  I am really ready to get back to work.  I was sitting in the waiting room trying to fill out the application that they give you and there was a gentleman from church with his wife.  He is always extremely friendly to me and I didn't want to ignore him cause I was filling out my application.  So I was trying to do both.  I believe that everything happens for a reason and nothing is a coincidence. This man happens to be a head injury person that was injured in Vietnam.  Well another head injury person in my life and he is so sweet.  I feel like God is putting these people in my life and around me for some purpose. I am not quite sure why just yet but I will know soon, I feel it.  The food bank for very successful yesterday we shared food with around 46 or so families.  We were discussing how fast it has grown since we started it.  Faster than any one around and other food banks are wanting to learn from us, ones that have been around a lot longer than us.  Wow when you put something in Gods hands how he makes things happen.  I want to serve him and do what he has planned and ask him to guide me to know what to do and who to share with.  He is an amazing God and I wish people would just stop and see him for what it truly is.  I was thinking yesterday how I could have changed my life just by going to church and doing things right.  I looked at that and how I did do most of that but when you walk with God you really walk with him and you eat, breath, think him.  I am working on this process through everything that I do.  I am taking this class at church called A Mom After God's Own Heart. I really like this class and I also get to meet other mothers that want what I want.  How great is that.  Have a great day everyone and God Bless you all.

Boy  who ever said that following the Lord and staying faithful to him and his way is easy was not being truthful.  Yes of course it is rewarding but the test that we go through some times can seem unbearable.  I started this journey with my friend Lisa and boy have we been through a lot together.  Right now it seems as if we try and try to stay on his path and evil tries its hardest to distract us from doing Gods work.  I know that we are stronger together and that we will defeat evil.  I never want to go back to my old life but sometimes I can say I look at it and think and know the reason I stayed so long. It was easier but of course the things that I did were just a band-aide for life's solutions.   I don't want a band-aide or nor do I want to cover up the feeling with something else.  I want to live the life he has planned for me but boy can  we just get started  with the good part.  I know we have to go through the bad to appreciate the good. I am praying that things are about to change greatly for both of us.  I want our families to enjoy and live the way God intended it to be.  I am ready for this and I know it wont be easy but the challenge I am ready for.  I have been challenged with some pretty tough decisions lately and I know that the closer I get to God I get to the Truth. The Truth is what he wants from us.  If we know him which is through bible then we know what to do.    Does this make it easy, well no it doesn't but we know that when it comes to judgement day that we can say we made the right choices.  It is a process re-training your brain to re-think that the ways of this world are not right and that God has much better ways.  God is in every decision that I make and I know that Lisa feels the same way.  That there is not one thing I can think of that doesn't involve him and the way he is trying to transform this world through us.  He is the most amazing, incredible God.  I want him to show me what to do and who to help.  I want the gift that people see him through me.  I'm ready Lord and so is Lisa  so lets Go....I Love you, We love you so much.  Amen.  God Bless all of you.

Today is Sunday as you all know it is my favorite Day.  It is a day of celebrating our Lord with the ones that we love.  All my children are gone so today I will celebrate the Lord with my church family and my sister.  This past week has brought me some surprises but nothing I couldn't handle because I have the Lord with me and on my side.  what a wonderful feeling knowing that it seems bad at the time but there is a reason and learn from it.  I freely give my heart away but I was led to a place in the bible through a dear friend to Love but to guard your heart. I was thinking that when God asks us to love is to love no matter what and if your heart gets hurt in the process then he will heal it.  Well yes and no I believe that he wants us to Love but to also be wiry.   So this I am learning.  I also know he wants me to focus on him and his works and not the things that I want.  So this I am also working on. I saw something at my girlfriends this weekend explaining three gifts that God gives us and it was extremely interesting.
1.  Wisdom-Knowledge of the Holy Spirit.
2.  Favor- Being Pretty or Handsome and when people see you they see God....
3.  Anointing- Having the Holy Spirit.
There is alot more to understand about these three gifts.  I am blessed that the Holy Spirit guides me and I feel him.  This experience is amazing and encourages me to move forward with the Lord.  Wisdom I believe comes in time unless God fills your head with this and this is a miracle.  Favor comes responsibility to let people know of the Lord, share him because when they see you they see this prettiness that God has given you to be able to share his greatness.  I am excited for church today and remember if you want these gifts from God ask him.  I also have learned that when we pray for things that God answers my prayers. He shows us and sometimes we ignore because it isn't what we want to hear.  He has his reasons why.  I was just listening to something and this pastor said ask and you will receive and sometimes as we pray for answers God doesn't just boom give them to us we need to read his word and understand his way of thinking to be able to hear him talk to us and direct us.  So remember to read your bible.  I know I struggle with this daily but I also know that when I do I do understand what he would do.  Have a wonderful blessed day and the Lord will guide you if you ask him and obey.  The Holy Spirit will come into your live and guide you if you ask.  I Love all of you.  Amen

So this week so far has headed in a great direction.  Other than my girls are going to be gone.  Emma is at her dads for the week and Brianna leaves for her dads today.  I am not used to having this time to myself.  I like it and I don't. I love being a Mom that is why I miss it so...Had our food bank at church yesterday again. It is every Tuesday.  Once again met some amazing people, but this week I met this couple that have a testimony that most of us would love to share with God.  Well, maybe because you have to put your whole trust in him and not  believe or care about the ways of this world.  God started reaching out to them to move to Salem Oregon from Columbia.  They didn't know why and had no family here.  I say had because we are now there new family. They came with nothing but themselves and not knowing why he led them here but obviously it is for a great purpose. They said 3 weeks ago since they stepped into our church NEW HOPE everything started going right and God started giving them gifts and providing for them.  I cant wait to here more of there testimonies.  I promise I will share them with you all.   I am going into this day with the mind set that God has his plans and he will show me as I go.  Just follow and he will provide all.  I start my Mothers Life Group today at 10 and I am looking forward to studying his word with other Mothers.  Have a great day everyone and God Bless you in all your works.

So yesterday I learned a valuable lesson,  it doesn't matter when you love someone forgive them.  Boy it feels  good when you do to.  It is like a huge weight lifted off and to be able to move forward in Gods path what an amazing thing.  Friendship is really important and we shouldn't let the little things in this world influence us in a bad way to destroy what God has put in our path.  Last week wasn't good for me but I will tell you this I learned alot.  Once again God brings good out of the bad.  I love him so much.  I am glad that I choose to listen this time. I  want to love like he does and with love comes forgiveness.  I know I can never love that much but I am going to try and be that person, who cares and forgives.  I have changed so much about me in the last year that I look in the mirror and even listen to myself sometimes and say WOW  is this me... I am thankful for all this he has given me and continues.  I have met amazing people and continue to meet them.  God is the most wonderful, amazing thing.  I want more and more everyday.  You couldn't peel me away.  Don't get me wrong I know I am not perfect but I love the Lord  more and more each day.  I try and remember when things are bad he is with me and boy do I feel him.  I am blessed with this gift.  THANK YOU GOD,,,,Amen.

Church was good today.  The pastor talked about not settling for less.  This has been my goal for awhile now.  I have settled to many times in my life.  I would do it again because I go three wonderful children out of this life but now it is Gods turn.  I want what he has planned and to believe in his plan.  To show him how much I love him and learn his way.  To show people the goodness of God through my changes and how I live my life.  If I can help one person this helps me.   I need this for my self and for me to grow with our Lord.  I want to serve him in whatever way he wants me too.  I moved out 3 months ago and have let the Lord guide me and he is doing a wonderful job and holding my hand even when I try and lead.  I believe he will continue to pull me his direction and I am also sure I will from time to time try and lead but he is always there when I let go and let him lead.  How awesome is that.  He never fails and he never leaves.  I m not used to that. Thank you Lord I love you so much.  Amen God bless all of you

This last week was a test of all my patience.   Had car accident, broke my phone, and I could go on but it is a blessing no one is hurt and I got my phone fixed without paying the deductible.  I went to my parents for the 4th and it was fun.  I always feel save and loved when I go there so I guess I really needed that time with them.  I also had a bad week spiritually last week with some personal issues.  I know that God is with me every step of the way.  It made me re-evaluate my friends and what I want and need in my life to progress in Gods path.  I also haven't really had a break down since I moved out.  So I guess that I was over due for this.  I usually can hold it together but maybe this was Gods way of saying let go and leave behind. I also learned that you need to only put your faith and love and trust into God and his way and he will hold your hand through all this.  I am very blessed to have him with me and guiding me through these times.  What an awesome God we have.  I was thinking the other day that without his help I probably would have ran back to my old life and just dealt with the unhappiness because it was easier and didn't seem so lonely.  I didn't run that direction this time.  I put my faith in his love and he carried me through it and continues to do so.  Thank you Lord for this. Amen.  God bless each of you through your day and weeks ahead....